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blueberries the real you.
if i knew the real you.
pretending no longer, accepting the truth.
i have to redeem myself.
you can hear it in my heaving breath.
you can see it in my bloodshot eyes.
you can master me with your honest request.

no, do not come to my world.

i feel like i have taken a razorblade to my wrist and scratched out an invitation.
i feel like i've taken a loaded gun to my mouth and announced an explosion of welcome.

oh, the real you. i knew the real you.
i will miss you, proceed most pleasantly without me.
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log burning fire i am really just like him. 051213