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blah-ze if you can deliberately bait someone into a massive tantrum of beating you, screaming at you, cursing, swearing, and punching you until they are too tired to do it anymore, and you couldn't bring yourself to make them stop, then you are too hopelessly in love to realise that they hate you for making them lose control. but maybe they will know that, at least. 031225
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jane see also on_love 031225
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blah-ze love involves a lot of fear too. fear of aloneness, fear of outsiders, fear of unlocking things you are uncomfortable with.

i believe once that fear is gone, love is too.
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blah-ze for some reason, i get really, really disenchanted once valentines day comes around. 040207
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unhinged but_still i can't figure it. how she could still be in_love with him when he gave her two black eyes, punched her in the back of the head so no one could see the marks, pushed her kid to the ground, has threatened over and over to leave her.

then again, as much as i hate being alone, i've never been afraid to be alone.
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