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from the smallness....
the vastness can never take away from the smallness.
oh all the silly questions...was everything just created replete with my memories and words like replete. have i really died, and then why does death feel so consistent with what came before it, if i ever remember living? all of those are highly unpragmatic questions.
because...what does it matter that we know that we are all just specks in the universe, when we think and hunger at a speck level for speck things. even if you live that life, it doesn't presume you should be more humble or forgiving, since it only means that everything in the universe is of this nature, and so is no more justified in existing than you, and so by not mattering you ironically can matter as much as you're capable of and want to and not fear you'll be destroying things that matter more than you since nothing matters.
blah. what it really comes down to is that while we can understand at some level of comprehension certain possibilities of the unknown aspects of the universe's nature, it is never as keenly as we can understand the hunger i have right now for a peanut butter sandwich.
it seems almost a design flaw to seek understanding when faced with certain levels of information, or with certain questions. i suppose our hunger is a way to break away from analysis paralysis, or to make sure an unanswered question does not put limits on the systems continuing to operate. i mean as well as being one of the basic requirements of physical life. it was an evolutionary advantage to seek knowledge of the unknown while also not forgetting what has proven necessary. still, it often seems a design flaw that we can care so much about problems more daunting than we deserve or require to exist.
atoms studying atoms! i had a crazy friend in one of my classes in college who used to say that when i'd mention that brains studying how brains work will run into certain limitations of the brain.
i think the distinction made sense. how well the brain understands the world at large, as well as its own operations is limited to whatever categories and understandings its design allows recognition of. it would seem that the brain, while amenable in certain aspects to these categorizations also seems to operate at a level not yet shown to be describable by them. while the same can be said of the entire universe and all reality, it would seem that one reason the "outside" world at a basic level (not quantum mechanics and string theory and such, which also seem to be in some way beyond our ability to completely comprehend, though i always hope to be proven wrong) is amenable to the categorizations our brain is apt to make is that our brain developed in contact with this outside world, and needed a workable interface system for our survival and furtherance in the world. Our brain was developed to understand the broad workings of the outside world, and some of that ability, as well as the ability to abstract which also proved useful, has indeed been put to use on the brain. We look at it as an object of the outside world. What's strange about it is that we approach it from both ends, using both the subjective (that which is largely undemonstratable to others) and objective. It seems so strange that neither has explained as of yet in a satisfactory way - consciousness.
well we're all specks...studying specks.
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