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amy with too much Saturn as of late, I've been using Runes to self-reflect and/or try to discern the future... and I find that when I picked reverse Wunjo, Wunjo being joy and happiness and all that, that I wasn't too upset.

if my life is not a joy, that's okay with me, I guess because I don't find it that funny, at the bottom. i never did shrooms and ran into cartoons and decided YES that's the ticket, or found that laughter is the key to everything. my laughter is usually a little cynical and contains a "yeah, whatever" note in it. usually with no exclamation point, either.

I don't think Jon Stewart is funny, he's more like a martial arts guy, or Stephen Colbert is just plain insightful a ninja, perhaps. Conan O Brien might be funny and joyful at the same time, i still haven't decided. Jay Leno is funny, but in a hammy way, which I like.

Joy, I don't think I value it, but I would say that it not something to be disvalued by others. so i wish you happiness, and joy. tears of joy, even. but I don't miss it.... weird, isn't it? it might even be a little psychotic.
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unhinged you should value joy dear. it eases suffering. it makes opening your eyes every morning more than just the trudge through another day. i myself have been somewhat disconnected from it lately. winter does that to me. brings out all the darkness. 090224
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amy no, i really don't miss it. i might be exaggerating a bit, but i can be happy and i can enjoy myself, i just don't think joy is on any of my lists. maybe i haven't celebrated enough mardi gras or something. like what they say about it in eastern philosophy -- it can be violent joy. in the west, though, i recognize that it is valued.

i can recognize that the non-desire doesn't come from my heart, though, more from my solar plexus or sacral area.
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ergo x/smiles+songstime=joy 090225