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the_throes_of_middle_age
Weird old bird I was shocked at reaching thirty, given my nihilism and general bent towards self destructive behavior

Now, equally shocking- in Four years, ten months and three weeks or so, I will turn 50

I don't really feel all that different other than my awareness of the burden of expectations of how someone my age is ostensibly supposed to act

I am seven years away from reaching the same age my father was when he died, 13 years from matching my mother's life-span

At this point, my goal is merely to not die exceedingly broke or in an embarassing situation, beyond that, not sure what else to do with it
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