blather
the_soundtrack_to_my_insomnia
kerry the_cardigans, "first band on the moon"

the_smiths, "louder than bombs"
020805
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Sailor Jupiter Counting Crows - Long December 020805
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IKC 56-80 Danzig III and IV,
New Order "Power Corruption & Lies," Skinny_puppy "cleanse fold manipulate"
Muslimgauze mixtape
020805
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cheer-up-emo-kid If_I_could_talk_I'd_tell_you
-the lemonheads
020806
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squint laughter
plastic barks of keys
my paranoia
a
a
a
a
behind me, lookout!
020806
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Sailor Jupiter Last night I ended up listening to Simon and Garfunkel's Greatest Hits. 020806
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sabbie the noise of the rain on my tin roof.
the noise of whatever animal is living up there.
the noise of my thoughts all shouting for attention.
the roar of silence throughout the house.
the noise sleep makes
when she doesnt appear
020806
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mourninglight bits and pieces from the past

'round here, counting crows
iris, goo goo dolls
the third track off matt good's beautiful midnight as well as the last
...and thats tonight, in a nutshell
041208
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Piso Mojado these days,
'bp empire' infected mushroom
'the freewheelin bob dylan'
'vespertine' bjork

and always,
'wish you were here'
041208
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birdmad wingedSerpent joy_division - substance
a_perfect_circle - thirteenth step
dead_can_dance - into the labyrinth
velvet_underground - ... & Nico

there were other discs on the list, but those songs on those discs just taunt me now, so i boxed them up until i can harden my new shell enough to bear them again.
041209
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(z) plastic bertrand - ca plane pour moi 041209
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monee sigh_after_sigh
and snow drips
041209
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Piso Mojado () 041217
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Piso Mojado sorry, it's ( ) 041217
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anne-girl anything loud and obnoxious
preferably uncensored
041217
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() (mingus!) 041223
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xeldax blue dress 041223
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in a silent way laptop fan whirring
fingers scraping across scalp
idle conversation with self
occasional gust of wind or passing car
the taste of waiting on my tongue
but that's not a sound at all, is it?
130123
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FA113N The foxes making love,
Shouts from next door,
Other people's televisions,
The weed dealer coughing outside,
Sia, Tori Amos, Sara Bareilles, Sarah McLachlan...

And me, with busy hands,
Always writing
Emails I'll never send,
Poetry I'll delete tomorrow,
Searching, always searching for that phrase.

The arms that wrap around me in my sleep
Are those of my dead father.

I read Hamlet

I cannot sleep.
"ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come"?
"It is not nor it cannot come to good:
But break, my heart; for I must hold my tongue."
Ah Hamlet...
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