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perfectly_chaotic Chilling repetions.
Not just the turnarounds, nor round-a-bouts.
Round after round of fruition,
something my labors have not brought 'bout.

The cinematic replay of yesterday's plays,
each one runs rampant in my head.
They all have the same cutscene to relay,
the day when my heart, well, it sure had fled

from the bones I carry with me, each one,
a reminder of when our lips first met,
the fire, the great blue rising of the sun,
is there nothing more I can do that we can let

our minds forgive us? What a tragedy it seems,
at least to me, as I read the same damnable phrase,
every last word poisons my heart like an oil of neem
does the pests, to once again view the same phrase

That damnable phrase that tells me that "I miss you."
The one that describes the first time we truly met,
in the same place that tonight I did sit,
I tell you, thinkin bout this smells of the arm pits.
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unhinged as much as i like my current smell, i might change it soon.


just another thing in the list of things i did to please you that didn't make much difference in the end.
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unhinged 'when i was taking a nap today, the pillow smelled like you'


one of the vaguely_amazing things of being close to someone; little pieces left behind. some more solid than others.

molecules_left_behind
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falling_alone this chair
every now and then the wind picks ups
and slowly drifts
but trying to search for it myself?
who am i fooling
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unhinged 'if you won't come over here to sleep with me, i guess i'll have to sleep on your side of the bed.'

'why? cause it smells like me?'

'maybe'



we are getting ridiculously attached to each_other . me becoming unhinged_in_seattle is gonna be painful on my heart muscle.
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perfectly_chaotic The scent slowly fades into the background. Another smell amidst the decaying compost which awaits a new rose to feed. Amidst these new smells the old have faded into the backdrop. The stage has been set for a new tragedy....

Damnable hope. She has left me without a thing other than the misery i never knew i was asking for. Cursed reality, alas my mistress, you have washed away the horrid hopes of yesterday only to have me wallow knee-deep in the same sort of misery i will someday forget in much the same manner that i can almost forget you....

I want to say i will never drink again.... For now, I just won't have one today.
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