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unhinged if you do enough good things the universe starts to bring good back to you 140721
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flowerock good to remember this.
similar to focus_on_the_journey not the destination.
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unhinged well it is kind of an accumulation thing 140722
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unhinged tibetan buddishm is very focused on practices that accumulate merit to purify karma

i.e. we all act shitty therefore creating negative karma. some people act really shitty therefore creating more negative karma. some people need more positive karma to tip the balance back to a positive result. you get what you give. something like that.


also, effort on the religious path is a continuous thing if you wish to live a pious life. one doesnt give money to homeless people one day and bang a hooker the next and expect a positive net result.
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unhinged currently seems useless



everyday i take the bus home
everyday there is nothing
at the end of that road


i dont know what else to do

i will just find another one like you
when i am able to crawl out from this
'you are great...lets be friends'

now i say no
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