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andru235
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i am certain of it. i don't know how i know it, i just know it.
oh, no i don't. what do i know. nothing. that is what i know, but really i don't even know that.
but who am i kidding. i know all sorts of things! like this, and such as that. i know of here, and i know of there. i'm *certain* of there.
yet, i am riddled with doubts. i am not certain at all! how could i be certain of there when i am not even certain of here? it's absurd. it is almost as absurd as the 'far side' with the guy holding a rifle on a street corner, clad in a ducky inner-tube; the caption says, "nature's way of saying don't touch."
or is it even that absurd? probably not, i don't know. i really just don't know. i must stop trying to know. i must concede that i cannot know. that i don't even know what i'm *trying* to know.
...oh no, no no no no no, help me. oh for fucks sake. now i am certain again, and i don't even want to be. pretend i'm not certain, pretend i'm not certain, pretend i'm not certain, i chant to myself repeatedly. it is not helping. i am absolutely certain.
oh, the drama. here i am, forced to be certain about something i don't want to be certain of and yet *desperately* want to be certain of. forget! i must forget! when i am there, i will know. but i already know, so how do i get there? there must be a way there from here...why else would i be certain?
but...am i certain? how can i be certain when i am not sure at all. why, what evidence do i have! where is there any evidence at all? there is no evidence. i don't know. i know not. no know. no, no, no...
no...oh drats. i *do* know. how could i NOT? there is evidence everywhere! i don't even want to see any evidence, but there it is. i don't want a confirmation, and yet now i have it. why was i ever doubting it! how could anyone doubt something as such! how, i ask!
"so easily," i reply to no one in particular.
for i am feeling doubtful again. i just cannot be sure. i'll...i'll try and forget. ok...forgetting...forgetting...think about tea...think about motorcycles...think about kaon mesons...
NO! oh, why! why? why must i know? i don't even WANT to know. stop. oh, stop. i simply cannot bear it. and yet, i couldn't bear not knowing either. i cannot bear anything at all anymore. and yet, here i am, bearing it. this is awful. this is wonderful. its awfully wonderful and you know it.
oh, even dimensionality. i am so ready to go home. but can i be sure i even *have* a home? isn't it obvious? isn't it obscure?
know!
don't know!
know!
don't!
do!
don't!
yes!
no!
aye!
nay!
it is certain!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
hooray!
congratulation! you survived three seconds in the life of andru235!
congratulation!
cong-ratu!
congratu!
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