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. I wear earplugs at night because I know that when I have gone to bed, they talk about me.
headphones during the day
Their murmurs drive me insane
Quiet when I've left
loud, quick change of topic, when I return
PARANOID
kneeling in front of the door
listening intently
for what I'm afraid to hear
Nobody on my side of the line
To confirm and concur with my side
We can't keep exchanging the same opinions
Getting stronger all-the-while
Wish I had someone; don't.
The noise makes me lonely,
Everybody hates me,
Got what I deserved,
Wish I could be disappeared
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Death of a ah...little dot.

this is but a silence you are hearing,
a moment that passes in the midst of a journey.

travel with it,
learn from it,
never become it.

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. do you know what's strange, papa doar? Reading that over, I sound like a young teenager; it isn't even my usual writing voice.

I feel like a kid again, and not in the "carefree playful" way that was never mine anyway.
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