the_guide_to_loving_yourself
endless desire
yeah
.
can
anyone
write
one
for
me
?
i
am
really
serious
.
i
am
sick
of
self
hatred
.
i
am
willing
to
work
to
get
out
.
i
have
been
trying
.
but
i
don't
where
to
start
.
i
thought
i'd
turn
to
my
fellow
blatherers
for
advice
.
many
of
them
are
((
far
too
))
good
at
giving
it
.
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...
<>
simple
.
two
words
:
lesbian
porn
.
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...
god
why
do
you
hate
yourself
?
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...
endless desire
you'd
think
that
would
be
an
easy
question
for
me
to
answer
.
i
have
been
thinking
about
it
all
day
,
to
tell
you
the
truth
(
i
followed
your
'why'
advice
bri)
and
it
worries
me
that
i
might
just
hate
myself
for
always
hating
myself
--just
some
stupid
endless
cycle
.
but
if
i
think
about
,
i
just
realize
that
the
reason
i
hate
myself
is
because
i
see
no
reason
to
love
myself
.
any
answer
i
have
ever
come
with
or
been
given
,
i
have
refuted
with
my
own
((
twisted
,
you
say
))
logic
.
which
leaves
me
with
very
little
hope
.
my
((
therapist
--unfortunately))
and
i
were
discussing/came
up
with
the
fact
that
when
i
was
younger
,
i
searched
for
indirect
sources
for
attention
,
and
got
very
little
of
it
((
mostly
like
because
of
how
many
kids
there
are
in
my
family
))
and
this
left
me
thinking
that
i
was
worthless
.
i
assume
the
feeling
stuck
until
now
i
don't
even
understand
its
source
.
that's
the
thing
really
.
i
view
myself
as
worthless
,
deserving
nothing
in
this
world
.
but
i
want
to
get
out
of
this
cycle
and
this
life
i
am
living
.
i
guess
it
was
silly
for
me
to
think
that
anyone
could
help
me
.
it
was
worth
a
shot
.
thanks
for
asking
though
.
questions
like
that
make
me
think
. (*
oh
and
if
icould
roll
my
eyes
anymore
at
the
lesbian
porn
comment
,
you
would
hear
it
)
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...
endless desire
i
never
did
figure
that
out
,
now
did
i
?
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