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"I miss you, Sarah.
You are smart, gorgeous, Jewish, laid back, deep, and have a real appreciation for life.
And I keep thinking about talks that I had with N about the problem of "pretending to be in a relationship" without ever having to really invest in one.
I guess it is not a problem if both partners are fully on board for the ride. But for me, the ride clearly has precipitous highs and lows.
And I keep wondering if it Sarah that I miss or just the companionship. I have trouble coping with lonliness, and it worries me.
It is so strange to develop a chance encounter into an intimate relationship without hardly any interactions. I know you better now than before, but wonder if my impression is still skewed. Perhaps we are both still feeling each other out for levels of trust and vulnerability.
It is often hard to read you, Sarah. I've gathered that you tend to be more introverted and quiet. That is fine. Yet considering how much we value
communication, it seems that we both have some considerable growing to do in that arena.
I think of our time together as a microcosm of all of relationships in our respective cities. What habits
and coping strategies did we both rely on during our trip?
For example, for me, I know that I am addicted to sex, and use it to avoid intimacy, an intimacy of a deeper
kind. I can see that I needed and wanted to be physically intimate more often/faster than you or my timing wasn't always right on. I have to process this idea more before writing more, but you get the idea. Please share any thoughts about this.
Anyway, I have to finish packing.
Thank you, Sarah, for exploring our relationship with such adventure. You are a magnificant being, and I remain jealous of Olympia, Portland, A, B, and
everyone else who gets to enjoy you.
Love,
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