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Of late, it's been difficult to find anything positive to say about anything. It's not that I don't see the beauty of the world around me. It's that everything reminds me of how ugly we have and are making it for decent, caring people to hold onto their hearts. It's everything I can do anymore to keep it from driving me completely off my rocker..if it hasn;t already.
But there are a few things these days which keep me sane and hopeful.
Lia is first and foremost among these. If you only knew her. I've never met anyone like her. She is patient, gentle and kind...despite being constantly imposed upon for her entire life. She is open and honest..never manipulative or conniving. She gives and gives...and gives..and although it breaks her heart that most folks don't return the treatment..she keeps on giving. She breathes life into the music, poetry, philosohy and esoteria that we share with each other. She never yells (she's raised her voice once or twice..and understandably so) we rarely fight (maybe 3 times in 4 years?) We talk about things...we dont let misunderstandings get between us. I have fucked up on occasion (ok on many occasions..mostly related to weed) and we talked about it...worked it out...moved on. She loves me. She really loves me. I can tell, because she cares about what happens to me, about what makes me uncomfortable, about what makes me happy. Not that it matters, but she's also extremely easy on the eyes, which my Libran Sun appreciates very much. She is my partner..finally. She is my best friend..(never really had one before..cept maybe my son more on him next blathe..)
After everything is said and done, Lia keeps me hopeful, keeps me sane and helps me recharge.
If only there were more Lias in the world..and maybe one less Daf.
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I agree with you Daf, there should be more Lia's int he world.
They should be but they can't because they are singular, someone meant only for the person the have met and are sharing their heart with.
I will be damned that I've stated this but it is true. You are lucky m'man, very lucky to have this.
Hold it close dude and keep the past as a reminder.
Much love from the ether.
Doar
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Daf, I remember that I really enjoyed reading you_are_loved. The selfless acts you described are not those of some sort of monster at all. The world would be much poorer were it to have one less Daf.
Glad to hear you have this Lia person around by the way because she sounds wonderful.
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unhinged
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shamatha
tony
when he tells me everything will be ok, i actually believe it.
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Every once in awhile..I'll have a decent conversation. It's nice when the information just goes back and forth without any of the annoying hiccups that plague human communication.
No looking to be smarter than the other, no looking to point out the flaws in what the other has said. No having the other person barely pay attention to you, until it's their turn to speak. That's nice.
It's nice when the conversation doesn't get bogged down with corrections, and "lol you made a mistake"s, and arguing over who was right and who was wrong and who said what and who didn't.
Lia and I have conversations like that..my son too. And there are a few others who are capable of sane conversation..a very few, but I cherish every word we exchange. They are golden moments in my life, when what is to be appears to be..just for a few fleeting minutes. Sometimes, it isn't enough. But most days it is.
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daf
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A rational explanation for all that I've been feeling and seeing lately..in myself and in the world around me.
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