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aloha lupin Damn it, I have to go to work, now! Let me go! 011020
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unhinged tear myself away
one last time
in a futile attempt
to make me everything
you never wanted in this girl
just one lost raindrop
in your sea of many
sometimes i would love to
keep up the farce
of a crazy girl
with a staining addiction
all i could find when i
looked for beauty
tell me the last time
the thought of love
crossed your mind
i'm sure you can't remember
tell me the last time
my number
crossed your line
sometime in late september
tearing myself away
with little pills
and empty bottles
shattered wills
it all just melts away
i could laugh and hold your hand
take all day
to keep the farce i never
wanted to play
lust was such an angry glue
never wanted that of you
all i could find when i
looked for beauty
i'm sure your idea
rotted on the same hook
fastened and dead
011021
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lovers lament can't stop seeing you
though i can never quite look at your face
sit in the corner, wanting you
just wishing you would have something more to say
i tear myself away
night after night, going home to a lonely bed
remembering your embrace
sometimes i can't even sleep because you're always in my head
it makes no sense
i can turn off my feelings, forget i even cared
but not with you
i'm caged to feel this way,no forgetting, it's not fair
he told me you felt for me
it pushed me forward, gave me hope to hold onto
but now i see the truth
it won't be long before you're gone too

for greg
011021
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silentbob the last thing she said to me before she came to visit me. then it was like they were doing just that when they got in the car and had to drive back. 011021
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Sonya I once thought this was a difficult and painful thing to do.
And now I find myself succeeding at it with you.
It doesn't even make me want to cry,
to tear myself away and say goodbye.
I can't really say it's fun or easy,
because now I'm wishing I wasn't me.
011021
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sheryl you can't make somebody else feel
it's time to stop wishing/hoping/trying
011022
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girl_jane But not all the glue came off-some of me stays on the other paper-maybe sometime I'll come back to scrape the rest of myself. 020806
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cheer-up-emo-kid its almost been a year. 020807
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divine madness and with a sardonic smile on your face
you cheerfully go your own bloody way
as my emotions drown me into oblivion...
040121
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leni before i get torn in two
into...
061013
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san and leave pieces of me
behind
061014
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sab san who is really sab 061014
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Chris aka i try but why? Because i will only get hurt? Why must i stop being there for her? Why must i stop loving her? I sit because i know she would take advantage? What does that have to do with me? I shouldn't care. it was my choice to love her and she always be beautiful to me. I love her but i find myself tearing myself away. 061014