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surface_self
(_) it should not be described in words
but instead the way i felt
and the talk that was so good
but differently normal

and how i mostly felt enough
for them the determined people
who do more than live in static
they liked me or
at least my surface self
accepted it
until i almost was what they thought
good
only cried a couple of times

also how it seemed like i did something
every day made people
laugh and was nice but still
the only pale one

and the dance felt in
over my head but it was okay
almost like i could swim
make people notice

the last thing that i was afraid
of touching his sunburn even his legs
which wouldn't hurt
and i didn't love the movie
but

everything was fine
i loved it
and thank them and
the way i seemed
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