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u24 Close your eyes and feel my love for you bursting through the screen. If I could hug you I would hold you tight and secure. I would encase you and wrap you and anchor myself to you and you don’t need to worry about a thing. In that embrace I’d give myself to you completely. 200515
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unhinged my father gave me a hug box when i left home for college. it is antique wooden jewelry box with strange archaic holes and spaces on the sides that a girl in the twenty first century couldn't figure out the use for. the lid also has a mirror. when my dad gave it to me he told me that whenever i needed a hug i should open the box, look into the mirror, and feel him hugging me (my dad had a habit of squeezing me so tight until i literally relaxed in his arms. even as a child my anxiety was physical and palpable. these days scientists talk about weighted blankets to calm our raging hearts...we really just need to hug each other more).

every now and then i still get a text from my dad:

'go to the hug box for me'
200516
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Doar I'm always up for hugs. Rhin does tend to demand them, but I'm always ready for them.

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200516