suicide_note_to_blather
this is for real
I
’m 34
years
old
,
dreadful
,
manly
looking
,
overweight
, deformed
and
I
’m
really
tired
of
this
body
,
my
looks
,
my
dry
nasty
skin
I
hate
it
.
Hate
it
ALL
!!!
The
person
beneath
this
beast
doesn’t
match
up
.
Have
no
one
.
No
job
.
I
used
to
stay
high
on
marijuana
24
hours
a
day
just
so
I
could
ignore
these
issue
and
go
on
with
me
life
,
but
I
can
’t
any
longer
.
I
can
’t
even
look
myself
in
the
bloody
mirror
anymore
.
It
’s
all
hopeless
and
UNFAIR
!!!!!!
I
’m
thinking
about
taking
this
400
total
mg
of
abien chased
with
some
fine
whiskey
just
to
be
sure
.
I
will
never
be
happy
as
long
as
I
look
like
this
.
I
’m
such
a
munter
really
and
don’t
try
to
convince
me
otherwise
.
I
wasn’t
supposed
to
be
born
like
this
!!!!!
I
’d
rather
just
fade
away
for
good
.
I
need
to
do
this
I
will
be
reborn
as
the
beautiful
woman
I
was
supposed
to
be
.
150325
...
spring butterflies
You're
dead
already
by
how
you've
chosen
to
live
.
Why
not
take
this
day
to
become
alive
and
make
a
life
worth
living
? Hard_work_is_the_easy_part.
Do
you
exercise
the
courage
to
do
THIS
?
150325
...
no reason
i
can't
say
much
because
i
don't
know
anything
beyond
what
i
read
here
,
but
i
sincerely
hope
you're
still
alive
and
that
you
find
your
way
.
150325
...
.
who
are
you
people
?
150401
...
Doar
Dammit
,
why
do
I
have
to
be
so
late
.
I
hope
you
are
still
breathing
.
And
in
a
better
mind
space
.
.
Stay
well
.
.
210403
