blather
such_sadness
sab
like a part of me
is suddenly missing

and i sit here quetly
and wonder

whether i should go back to collect it

[when she was good
she was very very good
and when she was bad
she was horrid]
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misstree the rain has washed
my watercolors into
streaks of blurred
{i can't even feel the colors anymore}
stains on skin/beneath wounds/once you came/are the marks/of memory
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suicidalchinadoll I always feel so desolate after taking pills. even tylenol..the price of numbing my shoulder will be going through the next 3 hours with a fuzzy skull as well. 041227