start_drinking
notme
know
that's
not
the
answer
i'm
just
kidding
to
myself
031030
...
from now on
but
sometimes
it
sounds
like
a
plan
041022
...
from now on
until
i
remember
how
sick
it
makes
me
feel
041022
...
pete
i
have
the
kind
of
personality
that
gets
addicted
easily
...
if
i
have
one
beer
i
always
want
another
..and
a
nother..
and
anohter..
so
i
usually
avoid
the
first
..
except
when
im
feeling
really
down
,
or
with
my
roomate
john
(
we
control
eachother's intakes),
or
studying
..
yeah
drinking
while
doing
school
work
,
it
helps
sometimes
...
041022
...
jane
and
......go!
041023
...
jane
he
says
to
me
in
a
very
harsh
tone
, "
we're
not
going
to
hook
up
...!"
as
if
i
was
a
child
who
all
day
had
been
begging
to
go
to
the
carnival
.
why
would
he
think
that
i
would
think
that
?
he
had
been
drinking
since
seven
,
but
i
was
sure
i
could
catch
up
quickly
after
that
comment
.
041023
...
nom
not
a
good
idea
.
070125
...
unhinged
it's
everything
i
have
to
be
bridges
much
stronger
and
wide
...
i
realize
that
this
time
is
something
that
i
always
knew
and
only
a
fool
wouldn't
see
might
as
well
start
my
drinking
days
now
if
i'm
really
alone
am
i
asking
too
much
to
keep
you
at
arm's
length
?
am
i
asking
too
much
to
keep
you
at
home
?
getupkids
get_up_kids
070126
...
unhinged
i
only
tell
him
i
love
him
when
i'm
drunk
i
don't
think
he
believes
me
that
when
i
say
'
i
love
you
most'
i
really
do
love
him
more
than
any
other
girl
has
before
or
ever
will
i
am
convinced
of
this
because
i
have
not
been
able
to
find
many
people
that
love
the
way
i
do
so
i
can
only
say
this
when
i'm
drunk
in
case
his
lips
form
a
snarl
or
maybe
a
smirk
and
then
i
can
laugh
that
way
if
i
was
sober
i'm
afraid
i
would
cry
to
see
that
being
drunk
doesn't
make
it
any
less
true
the
way
i
feel
about
you
070126
...
nom
not
a
good
idea
070503
...
pete
i'm
feeling
it
after
less
then
one
.
long
day
at
work
.
070503
...
poet
ready
...
set
...
go
!
070503
