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so fucking lost dont be sucked in by beauty.
the most beautiful things in nature are the most dangerous.
in un-nature, in society and in corporations the shiniest most glamerous things often play the same role.
dull things are safe,
beautiful things are dangerous; there was a little girl lost in a forest once. it was a big and dark forest and even though she was lost the forest was familer, she had been lost in it so many times before. she sat by the side of the path a wizzened old man came up to her and offered her a look at his mirror if he could rape her. she agreed and allowed him his asking price, then, weeping, she gazed into the mirror, only to see the mirror gazing into her.
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sab todays_stains are echos
of all the yesterdays ive lived through
and all the clever ways i found
to disguise the fact i was


and even though
he had buried his head
he must have known
what was going on

and i wonder why
he never said anything
and how the hell
i lived to tell the tales

tell the tales i did
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