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| perfectly_chaotic |
Living as though I am two people. One, an egotistical meditating yogi who volunteers and watches his diet. The other, an addict who harms others and simply cannot live with himself. Two sides of the same coin until the coin is melted down into a completely unstable wreck. With each personality blindly running from the other, this crash was bound to happen eventually. I am not two different people and can no longer continue to live as such. Now I am dealing with life moment by moment on its own terms. Sober, irritated, angry, sad, lonely, full of pride, but at times there are flashes of happiness and a connectedness with something beyond myself. |
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