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spider_vs_pincherbug
jane the power struggle.

today, lying on the floor in order to get reception on my cell phone [my mother's house is a black hole when it comes to reception]
i spied a pincherbug writhing
a little brown spider - about half the size of the pincherbug - running frantically around the pinching beast
wrapping it in webs like sheila wraps her christmas presents
[like a boa constrictor kills its prey]
i watched the pinching beast writhe, curling & uncurling, hoping that some maneuver could force its binds to break

well, the spider won

last night i professed my undying love for her after drinking a bottle of wine [but that, emmm, had nothing to do with it] and after becoming blood sisters
i tried to wrap her up in the cocoon
but she would have none of it
& her curling & uncurling did break the binds
& i moved to another room of the empty house
where i woke up this morning
found a note on the kitchen table
& in the end it was me, stuttering, paralyzed by her arachnid venom,
my pinchers nothing, maybe this, maybe that,
maybe if i was a scorpion
so i suffocated in my own web

& you can't take something like that back
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minnesota_chris so you're just an incompetent spider? I thought you had more talents than that. 040527
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jane but with her
i freeze
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minnesota_chris you've gone so far in your few years, I thought you were stronger than that. 040529
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jane you make me sound like i'm subterrestrial 040529
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minnesota_chris underground? A burrower? I think you're superwoman. 040530
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minnesota_chris because I should really pitch it all and move to NYC myself. Or London, even better. Or France or Spain. 040530
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x i'm guessing this means you're back in town 040530
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minnesota_chris was that a question for me, or Jane? 040530
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x does it make any sense to you? let that be your guidance. 040530
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jane i am 040603