somnambulating_your_way_through_life
Lila Pause
-
I'm
conscious
of
my
unconsciousness
.
I
live
my
life
as
though
living
were
only
a
slightly
better
alternative
to
suicide
.
I'm
resigned
and
indifferent
toward
most
things
and
I
only
ever
ignite
my
passion
to
keep
my
hand
in
.
I
watch
the
news
as
if
it
were
crank_yankers.
There
are
no
great
sweeping_love_affairs
and
no
romy
to
my
michelle
.
My
list
of
people_whom_I_could_trust_with_my_life
has
always
been
an
ink
blotch
and
collection
of
cubes,
but
those
whose
phone
numbers
I
had
at
least
recorded
in
my
address
book
too
have
dwindled significantly
as
a
result
of
my
pyromaniacal_tendencies (bridge_burning)
My
list
of
desert_island_albums
is
vastly
uncool
because
I
can't
be
bothered
listening
to
indie
radio
or
keeping
up
with
NME's latest
THE
____
band
of
2004
.
I_do_not_have_an_iPod
.
I'm
a
writer
whose
name
has
never
been
in
print
and
an
artist
who
has
never
recorded
an
album
.
I
don't
have
a
car
,
or
a
career
,
and
the
writing
is
not
on
the
wall
that
I'll
be
getting
my
shit
together
any
time
soon
.
I'm
taking
the
long
un
-scenic
route
:
-
I'm
sleepwalking
my
way
through
life
.
040915
...
god
do
you
ever
have
a
good
time
?
040915
...
/
hope
is
hard
040915
...
mourninglight
not
to
typify
you
.
but
enough
of
that
sounded
like
what
I
would
have
blathed
under
this
title
,
that
I
will
end
my
contribution
with
the
thought
that
has
been
spinning
through
my
consciousness
for
some
days
.
maybe
..there
will
come
a
day
long
after
my
death
,
when
someone
will
stumble
across
the
mess
I
made
..and
believe
that
it
is
music
worth
listening
to
..and
recreating
..and
living
.
and
even
though
I
wont'
know
it
then
..
its
something
to
continue
sleepwalking
through
life
for
now
..
-
one
more
unpublished
artist
040916
