sometimes_i_cant_sleep
daxle
I
lie
awake
and
think
about
a
child
who's
struggling,
and
what
I
could
possibly
do
to
take
away
some
of
their
pain
,
to
send
them
on
a
better
life
path
.
Who
do
I
think
I
am
,
anyway
,
trying
to
fix
these
things
?
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...
no reason
things
like
this
are
what
make
me
think
i
may
not
be
able
to
handle
any
kind
of
helping
profession
then
again
,
i
guess
struggling
people
can
be
anywhere
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...
In_Bloom
Yes
,
I
think
about
what
brings
me
happiness
and
comfort
and
then
think
of
who
shares
those
things
around
the
planet
.
Sometimes
I
feel
spoiled
or
guilty
and
wonder
if
I
should
give
things
up
further
or
if
it
will
have
any
impact
at
all
other
than
my
psyche
My
psyche
...
who
gives
a
rat's
ass
about
that
anyway
?
It
can't
affect
or
effect
much
and
I
know
it
.
Once
upon
a
time
I
thought
bursting
out
my
love
would
cascade
and
flower
but
more
and
more
it's
a
snack
for
others
.
And
I
can't
reconcile
my
thoughts
to
sleep
081011
...
birdmad
it
used
to
be
so
and
it
is
so
once
again
and
before
it
used
to
be
because
i
could
feel
my
soul
disintegrating
and
seeping
out
of
me
into
the
night
but
i
kept
the
pieces
i
needed
and
made
the
peaces
i
needed
now
it
is
because
i
have
five
10
-week-old
kittens
who
think
i
make
a
good
launch
pad
and
scratchy-toy
and
who
like
to
observe
the
sacred
rituals
of
kitten_mayhem
five
times
a
night
scoops
little
bits
of
his
sanity
from
the
box
in
the
morning
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