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so_this_is_it
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wandering stars
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So this is it.
the edge of a razor Ive prepared
for the suicide
I am not going to pull off.
This is, these are:
my hands shaking
as I dial a number
that I once had memorized
so well that my fingers
barely flitted above the glow of numbered buttons
before I heard a ring and then your voice.
Why I would call an exboyfriend is
almost beyond me
and then I realize
that it makes perfect sense,
you've seen more than anybody else ever will.
my tears dangle awkwardly
.brimming.
created to spill over, choke my tastebuds with salt, drown me selfishly.
so this is it,
my cry for help.
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030104
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wandering stars
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so this is the worst hangover ever.
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030104
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wandering stars
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so this is the lecture, these are the scars I'm going to have to hide under long sleeves, this is thick dark dried blood, this is my fault, this is what it feels like to not eat for a day, this is sleep deprivation, this is sorry.
this is me mumbling, "I don't really want to die...I just don't want to live either"
and this is me when I don't have someone to be obsessed with.
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030104
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eklektic
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"i'm gonna go. i don't like being on the phone [hehe]."
i only called you because i was bored and i hadnt heard your voice in a while. but did you just not like being on the phone, or did you not like being on the phone with me?
i am so very sick of you. i think this is it.
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030105
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dxl
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this is me, thinking i understand what you're going through
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030105
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jane
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so this is the_color_of indecision
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030105
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stork daddy
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live your life on the bubble of zero long enough, and you'll fall in. you add one you take away one, after a while it all seems so futile. i just want someone who pulls me so far, so far from the mundane cancelling out of my life.
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030106
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three words
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so_this_is_it firedrops wes
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060731
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birdmad going on hiatus
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indeed, this is it, at least for the next three weeks or until i can get my shit together...
my office's internet crackdown starts tomorrow, so i'll be a bit scarce around these blue (and red) blather shores until i restore the home connection.
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060731
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god
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see that you do.
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060731
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LS
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Hopefully "see" you soon.
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060731
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Quadratic Equestrian
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This: it is so.
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