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so fucking lost
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i'm trying to hold it all together
i thought i had it all down pat
but my life disintergrates around me
slipping through my fingers like sand
and as the shards break and fall
i wonder whether to laugh or cry.
do i feel freed?
or more burdened?
considering
it
all,
i find i just feel pain
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020209
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no reason
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dear so fucking lost,
i understand all that, i really do, it's almost uncanny...right before i posted my own blather i read the other headlines that i identified with and they were all you. just wanted you to know that i understand, and empathize, but i would never pity.
take care.
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020210
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so fucking lost
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i appreciate your empathy no reason, but i'm afriad it doesn't change a thing.
i'm still spiralling down to an abyss i knew so well, so many years ago
thing is, i don't know if i want to resuce myself this time around.
it all just hurts so much
it almsot hurts too much
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020211
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who are you?
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who______are________you, 'so fucking lost'?
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020211
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so fucking lost
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i'm not sure i know anymore
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020211
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who are you?
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do you have a name?
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020211
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so fucking lost
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so fucking lost is a name.
i have many names. but where i am now, not one of them mean a thing.
everyone hides behind anonimity, even those you think you know so well. don't be too hasty to peel off this mask
you might find another underneath.
you might find that there is nothing underneath.
what does it matter anyway? just another congealing clump of blue words on blue.
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020212
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I also choose not to give my name
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Who are you to demand an identity from someone when your yourself hides behind anonimity?
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