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What I'm going to say is very personal.
What I don't like the most about myself are a few things, not just one.
They are my lower stomach, which sticks out farther than I wish it would, and which I think looks disgusting when I sit down wearing jeans;
my hips, which I see at disproportional to my body (stick out to far to the sides, too much fat), and disproportional to other people's bodies. My left hip is fatter than my right;
my inner thighs, which I also think are disproportional to my legs and fatter than most people's. I hate the way they look when I sit down;
my breasts are annoying sometimes. When I lose weight and my stomach, hips, and thighs shrink, so do my breasts. I worry that if I ever got to my optimum weight and size, my breasts would look deflated;
my outer thighs stick out too much.
There are other things I don't like about myself too. I won't go into those, but they involved my nose, my arms, and my back.
I think I'm obsessed. I choke myself with myself sometimes. I can't escape it. I don't want to escape it.
I don't want to escape it.
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