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sinking_feeling
glissade whenever you disappear from my life
i get this sinking feeling in my heart
and empty horrible sick feeling
drives me to tears
i wonder where you are
i wonder why i'm not there
I would never get tired or bored
of spending the rest of my life with you
you scare me speechless when you say you want to leave
that you can't handle me in your life
I wish with all my heart for this
sinking feeling to go away
i worry about you
i want you to be happy
is the only time you are happy when i'm not around?
is the only time you are happy when i'm truly alone and miserable?
the lies have gone to far...
i wish for many things in my life
but if you care about me in any way
please help me with my sinking feeling
please help me find the light to fill
the emptiness inside my soul
when you aren't here....
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no reason i worry about people when i haven't seen/heard from/heard about them in awhile

people should be forced to constantly prove their existence
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j see also: le_sigh 091014
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In_Bloom Observing
too flushed
too loud
too animated
too smiley
too close to destruction
091014
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K@T in the H@T you can only sink
because
they helped you float
so well &
for so long

(PS: you're buoyant on your own too!)
091014
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unhinged i was nearing the end of the debt tunnel
i could see the light at the end of it
i let my guard down at work
then some more bullshit happened


this sinking feeling
usually ends up in rising anxiety and stomach acid
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