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re_alisma a natural consequence of some sort of calendar ending....

perhaps it is concentration but not awareness. that would be easy enough. it's probably, more or less, more difficult and scab-picking than that.

well, in my case, all those claremont dreams have finally stopped. that's probably not the only infinite regress point i'd have to work with, though, but it probably is "good enough" for making that manageable life i seem to think, so desperately, i am missing. you gotta not like that, on some level. especially since i haven't set foot in claremont since 1997! how can it not be good enough, though? there was so very much of it. but it is no longer about memory... only in the most fact-recall sense of the word...
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