blather
sheryl_death
sheryl i have created my very own blather_death

::dramatically stabs herself in the heart::
::drinks poison::
::jumps off the brooklyn bridge::

I had a friend in high school who jumped from the brooklyn bridge

I always run that day through my head
how she must have felt on the train through the rush
on her way over.
was she numb, not able to differentiate btwn her burning tears and the stinging cold rain beating against her face, begging her to turn back?
or was she in a raged hysterical frenzy
not knowing any other way to deal
blindly seeking an end to her torture
did she hope someone would catch her in time?
which way to turn
quick sharp images feelings
I can't deal I can't deal
I need a way out
trappings
loneliness
etc etc



a person claiming to care, wanting to care
in her head I was meaningless
we all cared
cared with tears in our eyes
and candles and song
yet she was alones

she wouldn't let us
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