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she's_in_boxes_ii
REAListic optimIST she's in boxes,
enclosed and entrapped.
she always looks
like she's just been slapped.
hurt and tearful,
she's so closed off;
looking around
as if she's lost.
trying so hard
to forget her past,
i do not know
how long she'll last.
wanting so bad
to just reach out,
but always held back
by her own doubt.
feeling as if
she's falling apart
not living, not loving,
not using her heart.
afraid to express
herself at all
too insecure about
what she'd be called
the more she withdraws,
the more boxes she stacks
she needs to replenish
the courage she lacks
around and around
inside her head
she built a wall
until she crumbled and bled.
a coffin of boxes
to hold her in -
there is no way
for her to win.

spring, 1992 		031125
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emptiness cleaner If you wrote shes_in_boxes_i recently then I'd have to say you've come a long way because it's a million times better than this. 031125
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not she's_in_boxes_i sorry 031125
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REAListic optimIST i wrote them both in my senior year in high school. i wrote i first and ii second on the same day. the reason i wrote it was because i thought the bauhaus song "she's in parties" was "she's in boxes" but when i learned of my mistake i felt that there should be a poem with that title. when the first one didnt fit into any sort of scheme i made the second one, which as you pointed out, lost its fire once fitted into the scheme. i couldn't reconcile the two, so i left them both. 031125
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emptiness cleaner good answer. 031126
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