blather
shake_it_off
pete i really should,
but can't,
and am happy for that.
things change
with each meeting,
and i really don't know what to think
except that,
for everyone's sake,
i should try just a little harder,
and give this crush a good shake.

but then,
with a smile,
all my effort
turns to a beautiful waste.
071117
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:p you poor thing! maybe you should try not to be you or something then maybe the smile wouldn't come? or you could just keep trying to ignore it and write more on this website or something that might work? never stop trying, beleive in yourself, you will get there in the end. 071118