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selling_my_soul_for_passion
anne-girl yes..
because they claim to have the meaning of life
they say they have all the answers, and that's tempting, but I know they really don't
at least i don't think so

but what they do have that i want is passion... they have emotionally charged words like christ and death and love and on the cross and more love
and they genuinely care and are loving people... other religions have it too

a kind of genuine unquestioning belief... you can see it when they worship



it's a beautiful idea
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misstree piece by piece, it's doled out
for moments

i speedily exfoliate or
dig claws into gut and offer the goo or
delicately peel back rind or
offer whole portions
but in the end
it all goes
in the name
of passion
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me oh god.

strange sunday, this one.
i'm feeling a little 'anxious' as if i had taken half a hit of extacy.

i am sober.

but i keep thinking about a girl whose strangeness is so inviting. the glare of her smile too.
i should know better but i can't help it. damn it!
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