scheduled_pain
xelda
I
feel
a
blanket
of
depression
starting
to
roll
over
me
.
It's
because
I
have
not
made
the
space
to
feel
the
feels
.
The
sadness
that
I
fear
may
take
too
much
space
.
Pragmatic
brain
says
, "
Ok
,
you
have
to
make
time
to
let
it
out
."
But
right
now
is
clearly
not
the
time
.
I
look
at
the
calendar
and
think
to
myself
, "
I
can
be
wreck
from
about
3
:15
to
3
:45."
Sad
laugh
.
Maybe
it
will
make
tomorrow's
calendar.
140528
...
epitome of incomprehensibility
I
feel
a
bit
depressed
,
pressed
down
,
on
Wednesdays,
but
it's
usually
more
sluggishness
than
pain
.
140528
...
dafremen
Every
day
.
Every
breath
.
All
the
time
for
13
years
now
.
140529
...
flowerock
waking
up
to
the
unpredictable
but
always
early
jack
hammers
busting
up
cement
below
us
.
while
noticing
that
my
brokenose
is
crooked
and
bumpy
to
the
touch
.
I
guess
it's
kind
of
cute
,
as
long
as
I
can
brrathe
properly
,
still
swolen
so
I'm
hopin'
so
.
and
once
a
month
I
get
scheduled_pain
starting
in
my
ovaries
.
140529
...
xedla
It
was
not
in
the
schedule
.
But
there
was
a
moment
.
I
decided
to
check
out
some
links
to
guided
meditations
so
I
could
recommend
them
to
others
.
I
intended
research
but
thought
I
might
find
one
for
myself
.
To
make
a
long
blather
short
,
I
found
it
.
I
found
me
.
I
found
the
knot
in
my
throat
.
The
perfect
meditation
.
Once
again
dazzled
by
how
this
shit
works
.
Compassion
.
140529
...
unhinged
new_ink
massage
140530
...
unhinged
accident
cosmic_irony
140530
...
unhinged
dramatic_irony
?
140530
