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restoration
jess Can’t risk it
No nervous breakdowns today
So I fucked up..
It isn’t the end of the world
Or is it
It fucked me up permanently
I can’t listen to the outside world
How can I save this
I am just a little lost,
Don’t you think?

I need you to tell me what to do hear
I am small and stupid
I can’t make it on my own
You have to help me here

Where are you?
I am screaming
Do you not care?
Why aren’t you there?
You see me going insane?
You aren’t here

I am more lost then before
I am too weak for words
Did I truly fuck up?
Don’t I always
What do I tell her?
What do I tell him?

I was too weak
It isn’t an excuse
He won’t care
The realness of it is too much for me
I loved you and you aren’t here
Fuck men
I need someone to be waiting with their arms open wide
Safe and wanted
Where I belong
Save me
He is slowly attacking me
I can’t get out
What do I do?

Where are you?
I am screaming
Do you not care?
Why aren’t you there?
You see me going insane?
You aren’t here
You aren’t here
You never were
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