remembering_forgetting_adjusting
pete should sleep to dream to wake to dream
still
trying
,
though
putting
it
off
for
a
month
and
a
half
sure
didn't
help
(
so
says
afterthought
).
but
what's
a
guy
to
do
?
my
answer
:
live
.
my
second
answer
:
love
.
my
final
answer
:
live
and
love
.
061226
...
They call me truth
And
doesn't
it
seem
like
all
the
answers
?
To
live
and
love
to
die
and
hate
again
,
Endless
cycle
...
it
seems
.
But
life
,
in
its
awkward
loudness
hardly
ever
says
anything
,
nothing
meaningful
enough
to
be
heard
,
And
thus
,
we
hardly
understand
what
we
are
saying
and
comprehend
what
others
have
said
.
Endless
cycle
it
seems
.
Do
we
live
and
love
?
Yes
.
But
we
are
walking
contradictions
.
I
may
love
you
but
I
don't
trust
you
.
Not
enough
to
leave
myself
unhidden.
In
this
world
we
are
lying
to
eachother
.
And
it
has
suddenly
left
a
bad
taste
in
my
mouth
.
And
out
of
this
disgust
I
have
been
forged.
Out
of
this
disgust
i
have
been
given
a
name
and
now
have
a
purpose
.
Do
not
be
decieved
061227
...
pete
The
deception
is
pretending
that
through
anything
we
ascend
.
The
truth
is
in
recognizing
the
endless
cycle
for
what
it
is
and
revelling
in
it
.
061228
...
They call me Truth
i
believe
everyone
deceives
themselves
,
in
some
way
.
What
i
don't
believe
is
that
it
is
deception
to
believe
that
you
can
rise
above
what
you
were
yesterday
,
that
people
can
grow
or
evolve
.
In
fact
I
think
it
is
a
deception
that
you
are
helpless
in
the
face
of
anything
,
and
that
includes
change
.
I
have
always
been
an
idealist
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