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reaching_canan
beulahry it seems like it'd be kind of unsettling to live in california. i mean since its the state that's this place everyone else in the country wants to run away to, to get away from whatever. mistaking climate for off-balance chemicals or just familiarity as the main cause of complication. so there’s this promised land for modern america, but things still turn to shit there and then it’s just like oh this is it. 060920
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Ouroboros and then they sell their homes for 4x what they paid for and move to oregon, new mexico, arizona- pushing up housing prices and driving poorly 060921
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docrivs more tears shed when desire realized than tears shed over unfulfilled dreams.
we slave in this world of seconds and minutes,
and we toil
out this mortal coil of overhashed american dream,
only to become tired and long for
what lies in the world of seasons and annual cycles.
it is in this world that we realize that the otherworld is what makes this world real;
and another tear is shed.
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docrivs while we attempt to discern
the border between
this is real,
this is not real,
this is ours,
this is not ours,
the hours
pass by, unnoticed,
extinction advances
slowly, unbuttoned
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