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eggory i've never felt so helpless to define a meaningful existence. there was once a short phase i went through where i had accepted the meaninglessess of everything contently, and was enjoying exercising a lack of obligation except to what i chose, like to live by morals i was left with from before my existentialism took it all away from me, comfortable with the fact that those morals meant nothing.
it's not like that this time. last night i was very desperate to have things matter, that morallity could somehow be maintained without the need for faith. today i'm googling for philosophy. i need someone else to come up with the meaning i can't.
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z ethical humanism 060120
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z http://www.aeu.org/religion.html 060120
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eggory how do you revisit an old topic selectively? 060125