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amy picky yes and also talking about it so gay people - lesbians and gay men have a problem with bisexuality.

i'm not particularly thinking my great partner in life has to be a man or a woman but that person has to idk, be good for me. so throwing a wide net seems somewhat appropriate. "keeping an open mind"

however when it comes down to brass tacks if you date someone (something i've done very little of because i'm terrified of dating in this area by app, i tried one of them and it seems like doctors who don't actually live in the area but are willing to commute? idk, is that true?) and you tell them about this broad minded attitude ( or they find out) and it's not going to work out you can't actually reject them in a soft way "sorry you're not really my type, but i had fun the few times we went out thanks for sharing" now when you say "no it's not going to work out" you are rejecting them for, idk, just their whole being and vibe. and if you already knew it probably wasn't going to work out you shouldn't really even do that to that person.

so now, add in social oppression of queer people and for some, histories of sexual abuse, and now you shouldn't just say "i'm bisexual! but sorry not you" there really is no point.

i could be saying bisexual (when i have, really i just need to be saved from whatever situation i'm in i'm not sure sexuality is even on the table while i'm sending help me! signals) because i'm picky. picky is fine but who needs to know why i'm picky sounds like my business not somebody i'm about to reject "it's not you it's me" is actually reasonable and not a joke at all.

now to be a lesbian lesbian it seems like you have to admit to not liking men (for some reason) and also you don't want to participate in big swaths of life. perhaps you would like to watch a TV and discuss why people don't care about everybody in this that and the other situation. that's also fine.

and there might be more queer normative versions of life available to younger people that didn't have to fight so hard to get queer accepted. well too bad for you you were born for the culture war.

i'm kind of mathy you got a problem maybe i'll try to throw some things out there that might solve it. acceptance is cool too but you might also want to give me a problem because i'm really not going to dream up new ways to accept pretty much anyone everyone this that and the other.

you: i want unconditional love
me: ok i wish all the best, as far as that goes with my ability to wish that thing
also me: next

i seem to be more of an extravert but life insisted on something else and i stupidly listened. i pretend to believe i'm good at listening. but there's also a skill in listening for the right thing and letting most of the filler be not super hyper duper and a half important. none of it is like your life is on the line. some of that mansplaining isn't true it's only some collected lines about what men need to be true in order to move forward along the lines of what THEY believe to be the good life.

queer sure yeah sounds ok
apathetic a little yes
interested in sex not if you have humungous expectations apparently there's way too much baby making in my family it's always going to be flirting with the reproduction side of the equation.
idk like mail order sperm no i wouldn't do that to anybody
how about i'm too crazy like a gay man somehow solving things 		201016
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unhinged i can pass as straight
so
i don't count


dave chappelles bit about all the letters of the community in a car together makes me roll every time 		201016
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epitome of incomprehensibility The title intrigues me and I'm not sure how to parse it (normative to queer? normative to straight?)

but I also just want to reply to create a blather bisexual trifecta! Yay for virtual gathering.

(Next person can break the streak by being exclusively gay, straight, or ace. I give you permission.) 		201017
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amy a part of the panopticon to my projection of "whoever" is here maybe she's just a bot to torture me as i can't understand why anyone would stick with the same name on the internet unless they wanted to inviscerate someone with it

as to queerness why bother discussing it if it's not really your issue in an external sense.

you seem to be about 22 years old here. kind of open but kind of just throwing snot.

Chappelle might be passing as black in those fill in the culture gap cartoons. Don't get me wrong I like him just fine. Is he from the wrong city in Ohio? no idea. I can't figure out Ohio. Not sure if I would have the time to invest in living there or the need to find out about their shouldn't-be-criticized genuine liberalism. I'm supposed to visit Cleveland (Lorain) but someone from Cincinatti said you shouldn't expect much from them.

again i don't mean to taunt you or claim i'm better somehow -- and almost everything i've ever written here has been about closing it down. and now it's closing it down and making sure it isn't blue anymore (or red) that's probably always been the problem and why you can't be nice. that's fine. i wish you well.

attractive to men? yeah i don't know sometimes i just need to motivate and save my own life. they don't want to help. in it for the contest somehow.

let the games begin! just kidding. i feel incredibly sorry for children who were told children's literature was a thing going off in new directions in the early 21st century. but enough out of me. i'm just 123 reflect it out scum to you. doesn't matter. thumbs down to the whole thing. it's a deep saturated rob your soul through your mind blue thing. don't worry about your failures child send your soul to heaven leave it to the clueless patronage system to build some more roads to retirement. if you want to call it that. is that mountain gonna blow? this might also be the issue.

i wouldn't delight in being a Trappist. i would be super disciplined about it. and given all my effort, i could still go to hell because i walked too narrow of a road. doesn't that make sense? 		201017
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amy your goddess moderator! to epitome of incomprehensibility::

yeah it seems she wants to be both bisexual and straight. i'm not letting her in to the club. 		201017
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unhinged shoulda_known better than write anything on this page


i have never wanted to be part of your club. thanks for reminding me why i have closeted myself for decades...never good enough for people who use phrases like queer normative. better hate all the supposed homophobes the twittertards condemn as cancelled too.

thanks for the judgements on my heartfelt writings. you win. you can have blather back now. 		201018
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amy poet blind waste hellscape begging i don't want it. i view it as a mental health risk and think it should be read only in white or whatever some visual expert deems appropriate.

i'm trying to think why i came back. i had downloaded what i call "the offending app" (nothing as big as twitter) to finally check it out, took in three days worth of astro-babble from it, and on the fourth it was in some suspended mode of thinking and i figured (in a classically paranoid way) that maybe it was stealing information from me and deleted it. and then i came here again. prompted by, i guess, watching Hamilton.

i am offended that you haven't responded in kind. you refer me to Dave Chappelle to which i can only respond which of the four characters are you and also, no i don't think it's very funny.

but there is also this: passing

so i tried to parse this.

usually passing refers to race, right? that's where i picked it up.

if you're passing as white you have black ancestors but you look white enough that most people assume you're white.

this isn't a criticism. i'm trying to understand what you mean.

if it's about sexuality then passing as straight- you have gay tendencies but seem straight to most people's gaydar.

again, i don't have relationships i'm just trying to survive a money issue and a healthcare issue which are mixed up with who knows? a Catholic charity issue. anyway. don't accuse nice people of being not nice we all have a hard road to travel etc

this "passing" thing should matter greatly to you if you are gay "closeted" and be a lesser problem and relationship -specific (i.e. very dependent on what the person you love needs from you) if you are quirky enough to be undecided it is something that can be discussed? and if it makes the person insecure then either you or he (or she) has to get more mature and make it work better or move on. i don't think this is promiscuous. it's just the necessary motions to establish a normal and stable non homophobic relationship. you're not a jezebel for doing this. a jezebel is challenging religion based on gender or something. the world has been made lethal for jezebels in my experience, lately.

you probably want some kind of equality and respect however if the way you are respected by the world at large is not very equal whoever you're with might want you to "know your place" "everything in its right place" (know what i mean....? guys can be all up in a twist about it) and i don't think that's ideal but it's the times you and i and whoever we're talking about are living in. you can try to be utter quirky if you want but will you live. will you be to do whatever xyz thing you're thinking of.

if you think i've written too much, i think you've texted too much. thank you for baring your soul all these years, although you never did want to talk to me. i don't want blather. i can only think of maybe 10 blathes max that i would want to keep, and they should be all poetry. contained.

have you heard me recite..... well, nevermind. someone curses pretty hard. in fact it's very evil eye. not sure what my problem is, actually. 		201018
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unhinged i generally don't converse with people who have been judgemental attacking pricks in the past

not everything written after you is directed at you


your self_absorption is off putting is the only nice way I can think to phrase it. which is why i thought twice about posting anything here in the first place. didn't ask for your analysis. never have. which is exactly why i have avoided you as much as possible over the years. it is sad that you come across as attacking and judgemental and can't figure out why others don't want to interact...even children learn to avoid bullies 		201019
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amy doesnt usually want to dehumanize "your self_absorption is off putting is the only nice way I can think to phrase it."

help me out here, unhinged. i don't get it. have you read Orwell?

are you trying to be helpful?

what's nice? is it the passive aggression or passive aggression.

bot. Russian bot or something. once again, Dallas either proves I'm stupid or refuses to take responsibiity for reality thinking there's some other bigger better more productive dream ahead. or just a loser with a habit of looking the other way. pretending.

unhinged. nothing nice about her. laughs with the sinners rather than crying with the saints. confused. new "money" except not money more like entitled to old power plays.

when Dallas first described (roughly) this thing to me (when we were friends) i'm pretty sure i said it was stupid and sounded like he wanted to reinvent the internet for his own distribution. why would he want to do that, does he want to own more than the rest of us?

and the fact that they haven't been able to turn it off means that they persist in some kind of dream. or i owe Dallas $379 for a dorm room paint problem (i did just say yeah! let's do it! and they believed me) and now i owe him $100,000 for running this thing for 20 odd years (interest accrued on the dorm room and whoever else happened to show up) all for mostly you, unhinged. so, it's a bot. tricking you with a color that is bad for your mental health.

physicists are mean and put their problems on the junk shelf pretending they don't want you to know about them. pretending that humans will serve them because they and only they are the king of science. ask some TV show the failed physicists have managed to invent, I'm sure it exists. I would call it "Elsewhere"

sorry. the blather gods are bad at being human. although i don't really want to say this. i tend to think the same of sports! which isn't true. computer science lingo makes no sense to me. it's the same as it's been, for freaking the whole time, and here are the back ups. i reserve the right to insult any arbiter of truth pretending a simple response is a good response. "you're stupid and unpopular" is the number one girlish tool for preteens. once somebody put a letter in the slats of my locker in middle school i figured it was probably bad or unwanted so i threw it away. i have regretted it my entire life. i should have at least found out who sent it. and i probably should have read it.

this is insulting. the nonresponse. the quoting people without a reference. pretending the smallest sentence is "nice"

what gives you the right? have you done a good thorough study of Joseph Campbell or are you just trying to make friends? any other justification for putting up unreferenced quotes from his not-small academic and anthropological work? just typical internet references and borderline theft, i bet. is anybody listening? Bueller? 		201020
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lemon_soda I have myself in a double bind if I hinge my satisfaction on expecting someone else to understand the words I am using from the perspective that has built up in me. It can't be done and therefore I will never be satisfied with it. The closest I can get is a bit of self deception if they parrot me really well. 201022
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j god, amy. i've been reading your shit for the better part of my actual literal adulthood. you love to talk about how you have been here longer than all the rest of us but never have anything constructive to say. if you hate/resent/? blather so much then what in the sam hill brings you back here, time and time again? just ignore it like the rest of the internet. just go away. nobody owes you anything. let people have a small blue (or red) corner of the internet and leave them alone. 201113
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