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or maybe it's just stronger deja_vu
Sometimes I wonder how much humankind is capable of. Moments, brief glimpses of some greater power occasionally seem within my grasp. But perhaps that is just me fooling myself, crediting myself with too much.
Last week I awoke from a dark and troubling dream. I dreamt that I had a horrible splitting pain in my head, and I fell over, crying, sobbing reaching for someone to help me. My partner runs towards me but he can't understand me. He's trying to ask me what's wrong, but it's like we're aliens to each other. He does nothing. I die in my dream.
Unsettling though it is, I wake up and brush it to the side - dark dreams have always been a plague for me. As I get home from work that very same evening, my partner tells me a friend will be dropping by shortly to pick up some things. When my friend arrives, he has troubling news - his best friend's long-term partner had an aneurysm last night. It occurred suddenly, and without warning as the three of them were standing around and talking. They had no idea what happened to her, and though they called the paramedics, she was long dead when they arrived.
I shudder. I want to cry. I can feel it, the pain he must feel. The suffering. I think of my dream and am disturbed. I wonder sometimes... Perhaps we're more connected than we think on spaceship_earth.
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