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amy nada eh, don't generally win 'em. approval generally not given, people must think i'll learn... and actually, probably, i'll die. so i spin around and do a fuck-off motherfuckers routine, silently, to myself, for myself. not out loud, of course because honestly, it's not their problem. everybody always has plenty of other things to worry about.

but i do get this manna stuff, and that's supposed to be some sort of consolation.
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