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photo_girl_draft_one
otterpup you are all my ghosts and i dance to keep you from the door
just one more buckle and i’m done, buckled up and in
knuckle under
and laugh
get my hair caught in the catch
see the girl with the almond eyes watch me
hold my tongue
stand up, stand tall, and shake the sleep out of my head
stretch and yawn and think i’m someone else
all animal
borrowed clothes, borrowed legs, borrowed time, borrowed courage
stolen man
stolen glances
in a world of sensual sense, in a world of sensuality
enough to make you smile
to think you’re something different
but that i’m just a cardboard cut out
without dignity
but with integrity
and with beauty
i see you watching me
and i’m more than that
will be more than that
as i slide on my mask
for we are perfect in our imperfections
i'm here to remind you
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unhinged to_the_studio
before it became a home
no furniture to speak of
but a flip and fuck
and a homemade lamp
depicting robotlikes fucking
and she took pictures of me
i never got to see
just the lamplight
they were pictures for bobby
i miss her art
dark pictures
images of the life we led
together
proof that it just wasn't in our heads
guns
pills
bottles
images of me stoned
in faded light
for some boy in iowa
that was the way we lived
together
but at least we found a way
to create something
more meaningful
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