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oblivion you told me I had no soul.
you told me I could not love.

fuck it.

you project everything you hate about yourself, onto me.
and granted it took 3 months of you giving me nothing but silent bullshit to realize it, but I am not as crazy as you make me out to be, nor am I as lost to the world, as antisocial, or as randomly undependable.

you just can't bear to see it in yourself so you cordon me off from everything else that is dear to you, and grew in me this little monster that is your alter ego.
and I fell for it, because you said you loved me.

welcome to MY oblivion
oh wait..or is it yours?
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ah...oldephebe "...I can't cry this soul out of me.."

David Marsters as Spike. The newly ensouled Spike with just a touch of madness with the whole being tormented by an all star cast of Sardonic apparitions. (well okay not all star but just composed of poeple who died on the series and other vampires spike knows who are all after all the living dead or the undead or not real crazy about heavy garlic cream sandwich spread) Thier source? The primodial source of all evil "The First" rummaging through his being. Can't be a good feeling. Like lesions of voracious parasite (evil of course)feeding upon his newly acquired soul.
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