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What makes one want things that they shouldn't? What causes a person's blood to heat at the thought of child molestation? At rape? At beastality? What causes one to want to be beaten? What makes these people get hot at the thought of spanking? Being tied up? Humilated? Punished?
What makes me want these things?
All the "taboo" stuff makes me hot. I would never participate in it, but that fantasy of it... I must be romantisizing it. Rape is not a good thing. I know this. It's evil. But it makes me want.
I once read a book. I forget the title, the author, the plot, everything... except one passage. A young boy was returning his books to the library, when he was grabbed, taken into the forests, and raped anally. Since I've read this book, I've beaten off to this image too many times. A movie... Unsure of the actors, title, plot, but a girl was getting her picture taken for some reason. Then the photographer tells her to take off her top. She resists, and he forces her. She cries. I get so hot. "The Butterfly Effect".. a recent movie. The father is making kiddy porn. I want to see it. I throb in anticipation. But nothing is shown.
Stories of rape, and beastality, and incest get me worked up faster than any guy-on-girl missionary position could ever dream of doing.
Why am I this way? Why are others? What makes these thoughts that are so wrong so exciting?
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