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amy
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my friend levels are pretty low after being sick and going into hiding...
of course, i fear that i'm still sick and so i don't go looking for old friends who will just view me and go, "wow, she's sick. i'm just gonna leave her alone infinity plus one. unless she gets a boyfriend, then i'll assume better of her." and, of course, i don't want a boyfriend until i become financially solvent... so there you go keepin' my friend levels way down.
of course it's gotta be my fault! and did you know my sickness, if i truly have it, has these antisocial negative symptoms that are -not- corrected by the medications on the market... of course, of course, it's all my fault.
not really.
i kinda think i'm being pretty brave and good about it, but if others think i'm sinking myself in my own hole, well that's their prerogative, i guess. being "alone" is not the issue.... in my view, it's an image issue, and a perception/communication/understanding problem (on my side plus whoever else's side). blah blah blah. gotta be patient right? wait out the storm, you know? I do suppose i could try to communicate better.
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