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Due to shyness and because we had moved around a lot when I was growing up I had never officially dated but at nineteen, I met a girl who was four months pregnant. I felt sorry for her because the guy who got her pregnant abandoned her. Therefore, I fell in love with her and married her. Then her baby was born prematurely and died. She hated me for that because she believed that happened because we were having sex all the time. She wanted another kid so we had plenty more sex and she got pregnant again with our son. She still hated me for the whole fifteen years that we were married because in her mind I had killed her first born. Therefore, I decided to either kill myself or get a divorce and it seemed that getting a divorce was the better idea. I moved out and rented this nice little house for myself near the beach where I met my single neighbor lady who was eight years older than me, had cats and lived across the street. She left a card on my front porch that said I could stop by anytime day or night and spend some time with her. I ignored that card for the first couple of weeks but one night when I was feeling very horny I could ignore it no more, so I went over to her place and spent the night. This happened three or four more times until I went on a four-day trip and she asked if she could have the key to my place and use my washer and dryer, as she did not have one. Of course, I said yes and when I got back, she had moved into my place. It was her theory that if I was sleeping with her I must love her so why should we not live together. It was a bit of a problem for me because I had a couple of other girlfriends at that time that I was getting to know but she chased them off for me. Frankly, I was thankful because it was emotionally confusing to have several girlfriends all at the same time. She was very metaphysical, channeled beings, and talked to space people. I was open-minded about her pursuits; I thought that maybe it was a phase. One night she waved a crystal over a map and it pointed to a place in another state far from the ocean. She said the spirits were guiding us to move there. We soon drove out in the desert found the right place, talked to a real estate agent and next thing I knew she bought five acres of land! By this time we were pretty aware of each other’s financial situations and she felt that since she spent all this money on some land I should quit what I was doing move there with her and spend my money to build us a house. We moved and both got jobs in the new state. I built us a house and we got married. Many new age friends stopped by on a regular basis and we had fun listening to each other channel and driving out into the desert to watch space ships. We were married about three years when I got a big job back where I came from that lasted about six months. She said make sure I visit her girlfriend while I was back there working so I did. I went out to dinner with her girlfriend and she told me that the whole thing with the crystal and the maps was a lie! My wife had wanted to move to that area for a long time before she met me. She also intimated that hey, I would likely be able to have sex with her if I decided to leave her best friend, my wife at the time. Therefore, I left my wife because she had deceived me and because I had this other opportunity with her girlfriend. Maybe the thing about the space people and channeling and all played a role, as I was not a true believer but for the most part, I was just being a self-centered jerk. Well believe me I paid my dues for that decision. During the following two years, her girlfriend proceeded to do everything short of skinning me but the sex was good. Still I left her but I was a changed man, paranoid, fearful, and lacking in self-esteem. I had decided I would not date again for at least two years to recover so I got a therapist told her of my woes and she supported me in my decision. You see, I wanted to learn how to socialize so I joined a singles organization and was successful for about three months at socializing without dating or getting involved with anyone. But, there was a good looking woman who spotted me one day and decided that I would be a great challenge for her so she decided to pursue me and was very successful. So she invites me one day to drive to the city with her and then to visit some friends of hers in the city. She said we would be spending the night but she would not be sleeping with me, we would have separate bedrooms as we were not sleeping together yet, we had just met. On the trip there I sensed she had some hostilities towards men as she had stopped near a farm and asked if she could take my picture with a pig and she joked quite a bit with her girlfriends on previous occasions about men being pigs. She also bought a used book on that trip called “Swine” which was about breeding and feeding pigs. She said her girlfriend would think this book a real hoot. I saw some connection between these things I had observed. That night when we got to her friend’s house, a couple about ten years younger than either of us looked surprised and frankly somewhat disappointed to see me. We had dinner and they presented my new girlfriend with a present. It was a very sexy black negligee. They made some jokes about her modeling it for them. It was getting late and my girlfriend had a talk in the kitchen with them while I sat out in the living room. It seemed that there wasn’t enough room for me to stay so my girlfriend offered me the keys to her new car and said I should find a room and come back in the morning. I said ok but I didn’t really know the city and it was after midnight when this decision was made. So I found a room but slept in and had trouble finding their house the next day. I found it by about one in the afternoon and my girlfriend was quite panicked she thought maybe I had stolen her car as we had only known each other for about a week at that time. It started that way and just got odder and odder. But I married her anyway and after we got married it kept getting stranger. Men were always showing up who knew her and wanted to date her, they would walk into our house without knocking. This made me mad at her but she said she had nothing to do with it I should talk to these guys. Well, finally it comes out that she had this terrible childhood wherein all the male relatives in her family had been having sex with her and her sisters when they were very young and this really screwed her up. So for about four years we spent all our money on therapy for her and me and almost went bankrupt. When we ran out of money she left but after a year she came back and as I had not divorced her we eventually got back together and are married today and that has lasted about twelve years.
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