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x ack i'm almost forgetting them!
in one of them i stole some cheese off the internet, through my monitor, and gave it to my dad, who happened to be alive for some reason

fuck i can't remember the other one, and i was just thinking of it in the shower. elusive slippery dreams!
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More Death Than You Can Shake A Stick At even dreams 040331
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misstree curses of grey surrounded by white
second time through, i knew i could do better
but i forgot the horses both times

giant bugs. softball sized. coming for me.
and then bottles shaped like animals. coming for me.
and then knives and gardening implements. coming for me.
enough to break the brain just a little bit.
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sameolme Hi, welcome back, if you deluded yourself into thinking your real,
well you're not. See apple_tree_dreams
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birdmad like one of the lesser toys from the story of the Velveteen Rabbit,

never quite enough to become real
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witchesrequiem they are all odd.

Like I'm driving along the beach and this dinosaur is walking in the back ground...
Or I'm like fucking 5 years old again and remember all these people I forgot I knew.
Living in strange houses that I don't think exist...drinking ice tea, watching parades, throwing ryan down a stair well.
ahhh...
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no reason a robber came to my house but all they took was the front door 040401
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x trying to hug a child that kept shrinking

keeping a girl in my class safe from the people trying to capture her

putting my head on his shoulder and asking him to stay

everything is dim and gray in these dreams. i wake up at odd hours sweating and on the verge of tears. the bad feelings from the dreams linger during the day.
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notme i_am the_ghost in_my_dream

in dreams
i am haunting
i am the haunted
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Mahayana just woke up from one...

sabbie was in it

[cellphone, girlfriend's electronic voice diaries, t-shirts, weird concerts]
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notme i was prescribed an anti-cancer drug called Quatrix/Quatrex. i didn't want to take it because on the label it said it was made from cows. 040515
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hope or despair there was well butrin xl in my dream and i woke up smiling 040515
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.&. i said "am i really here" and they
answered yes, but i knew i was sleeping

there was someone holding me

i walked across a lawn
i met a rabbit in a hat
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when darkness falls a lucid flying dream was the best of them all, even though it only lasted a few seconds. 080522
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pSyche I was a doctor in Africa.

Go figure, when I finally don't have a nightmare, it's some frickin' meaningless shit.
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niska it's not fair that you keep finding me where i have no idea how to push you away. 080522
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why? babies with pig faces.
cockroaches.

i might be disturbed.
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sameolme You might be disturbed?
Well, those babies are gonna be pretty
damned upset when it's time to start dating.
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no reason a robin was inside your room and i got it to perch on my finger before letting it out the window

but there were all sorts of wasps and other bugs stuck inside the window and when i opened it a wasp flew inside
i didn't know what to do

then i looked around and noticed other flying bugs in the room and was even more confused

then there was a glass cage on the floor with more bugs, and a little girl stuck her finger inside it and touched a wasp

i kept telling her not to touch it, and then when she took her hand out of the cage, the wasp was on her finger trying to sting her

i tried to quickly remove the wasp from her finger without it stinging either of us but it was stuck on there

then she started crying because she got stung
then her mom walked in and i tried to explain
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no reason maybe it has something to do with touching living creatures 080523