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numbing_prescription_drugs
endless desire this is like my own version of garden_state.

there's so many drugs in my brain, i just feel this continuous expanding feeling in my head. antipsychotics, antidepressants, antianxiety--the list goes on. through in a little adderall, a few sleeping pills, a couple of vicodin, and your common allergy/asthma crap, you've got a whole cocktail of fucked up.

this state is tiresome. i can't figure out whether things will ever be better.

im happy, i say. but completely out-of-touch
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