now_vs_then
sab
[
birdmad
in
figuratively_kicking_your_shin
]
and
i
sit
in
stillness
for
a
second
because
,
i
guess
,
thats
what
it
always
comes
down
to
now
vs
then
.
thankyou
darlin
today
i
needed
that
.
050914
...
unhinged
not
that
much
has
changed
since
then
to
make
the
now
i'm
feeling
you
in
but
the
things
that
attract
people
to
each
other
are
rather
unspeakable
what
made
you
finally
reach
out
to
me
and
gather
me
in
now
vs
then
we
grew
apart
in
the
distance
and
i
came
back
not
knowing
how
to
talk
to
you
anymore
just
knowing
that
i
still
wanted
to
be
with
you
we've
tried
to
be
upfront
with
each
other
we've
tried
to
be
friends
you
reached
out
to
me
finally
but
all
i
know
in
this
now
vs
then
is
that
you
broke
my
heart
and
i
still
want
the
same
end
my
words
can't
come
out
right
for
you
what_you_meant_to_me
an
unexpected
awakening
that
i
wasn't
ready
for
a
transitory
feeling
i
don't
want
to
let_go
all
i
know
is
that
i
can't
love
boys
like
you
anymore
050914
...
Freak
Now
Sleep
deprived
,
hungry
,
busy
,
can't
go
out
,
responsibility
Then
Could
do
what
I
wanted
when
I
wanted
and
didn't
have
to
worry
about
anyone
but
myself
.
but
I
wouldn't
trade
any
of
it
for
the
world
050915
...
unhinged
it's
easier
for
me
now
to
talk
to
you
about
things
;
sometimes
i
veil
them
with
some
third
person
narrative
because
it
seems
less
confrontational
that
way
.
i
feel
closer
to
you
now
because
i
know
there's
no
hope
of
getting
what
i
wanted
out
of
you
.
i'm
beginning
to
understand
in
my
heart
why
we
aren't
together
together
.
why
we're
just
friends
.
but
it's
stupid
of
me
to
superimpose
the
present
on
the
past
.
i
knew
the
moment
i
met
you
we
would
never
be
together
.
it
just
took
almost
a
year
and
a
lot
of
negative
emotions
to
convince
my
heart
of
that
.
i
think
part
of
my
heart
will
always
hurt
to
see
you
with
someone
else
,
but
i
also
think
that
the
biggest
part
of
that
hurt
is
that
just
like
almost
everyone
else
you
would
rather
be
my
friend
.
that
i'm
good
enough
for
friendship
but
somehow
i'm
not
good
enough
for
unconditional_love
;
that
i
can't
get
back
what
others
take
away
.
it's
easier
now
but
that
doesn't
mean
the
hurt
is
gone
.
i've
just
learned
to
live
with
it
.
051223
...
unhinged
you
broke
my
trust
severely
you
finally
completely
cracked
my
heart
in
two
your
girlfriend
freaked
the
fuck
out
to
find
the
two
of
us
together
you
moved
in
with
her
on
the
opposite
side
of
town
we
don't
see
much
of
each
other
anymore
and
lately
i've
been
glad
of
that
i'm
always
too
angry
after
you're
gone
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