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kerry i am not entirely sure
if i really missed you.
you called tonight and asked me
to come to my window.
so i did, and you were
dancing in a very silly way
that made me laugh
but i still wouldn't go to the
concert with you.
because being around you makes me even more
analytical than ever before,
and
forces me into the tiniest cavern
in the back of my head
because while i listen to you continue to talk about your problems,
i am wishing you didn't turn the conversation
away from mine.
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kerry i guess it is too difficult for 2 people who are moderately self-absorbed to be good friends. 020802
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eklektic you're hounding me again about meeting up and making out. i dont want to. get that through your head. you'd think that you'd get the picture when i didnt reply to your IM and you finally signed off. i did that on purpose. i dont want to talk to you or see you - ever again. 020802
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silentbob i'm wondering where this will go 020803
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~gez~ to my greatest dismay, i dont think it will. 020821
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Ouroboros in the real world again, how do you take your new experiences, newfound abilities, and opened perceptions and fit them with your 'life' that has been sitting, waiting for you? how do you bridge the new and the old? where do you go from here? 100810
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minnesota_chris hahahaha

in the real world what matters is that you can pay your bills. After that, that you can raise good kids. That's about it.
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pip in the real world you would hope at least not to be confused about where you are and whats going on everyday. I don't know about money and bills, I don't even know who's dead or alive, I guess thats how you feel when you are in the middle of a war. Paying pills and having babies isn't exactly whats on my agenda right now. Finding a fucking place to escape to probably is of more importance to me, seeing as this place isn't exactly peaceful or relaxing. 100810
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re_alisma back from the local sea_of_humanity. took a train ride today. a welcome break from the monotony of semi-rural life. somehow the sea_of_humanity feels realer, more together. perhaps because there's a heck of a lot of order.

nature is real too, though, and doesn't even try to be "realer" which is something nice about nature. (don't know much about where i'm going with this, btw. a game? sorta, kinda, not really, sometimes.)
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minnesota_chris "in the real world you would hope at least not to be confused about where you are and whats going on everyday."

that is the hope, that's always the hope, but it doesn't come true very often!
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